In college when most of my friends were rushing to join sororities and eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner at the cafeteria instead of at home, I was still hung up on high school. I mourned my freshmen through senior year far longer than just the summer before college. (And far longer than any of my friends seemed to!) Granted, while the majority of my core group of friends in high school traveled to Southern California for college, I stayed at home. I didn’t have the change in scenery they did to distract me from missing the days when I got to see them everyday in class and in between classes and after school and on the weekends. A part of me felt I was still stuck in the past, longing for something I would never get back.
It was like everyone was moving on with their lives and, for some reason, I didn’t get the memo.
Of course, a ton has changed since my lonely first months in college. I eventually met new friends and developed a new rhythm to my life. However, infuriatingly, I’ve also figured out I’m prone to realizing what a good time I was having after the fact.
Somehow, it wasn’t until I could reminisce on the memories that I realized how good it all really was. Tell me this happens to other people too!
Now I’m 25 years old, working full-time at a job I like, living with a man I love, and overall enjoying my life …but still feeling that nagging nostalgia for the past from time to time. Except, instead of friends going off to college, they are getting married, having babies, and moving to different states. …While I’m still here, just wishing everyone could get together for a Because of Nothing BBQ.
Ah, such is life, I guess… All we can do is try our hardest to remain in the present, instead of the dwelling on the past or dreaming about the future.
And what’s better than a big bowl of ice cream to tie you to the now. 😉
** Note this blog went through a rebrand and is now veg vibes; which aligns better with the direction I organically gravitated towards. It’s all about your vibe ✌️ **